This definition sums me up at this moment, I am beginning!
Beginning /bəˈɡiniNG/: the point in time or space at which something starts.
With this beginning will come starts and stops, false starts and genuine starts, and to be clear, these are all beginnings. Finding myself, here in the mid of my life with just myself (children grown and on their journeys, with no life mate), I feel a bit overwhelmed with the joy and freedom! This freedom is a responsibility to myself to live my desired life, to create the life I desire. It may sound cliche, and suppose it is, but who else really cares about what I make of my life – it is, my life, only for me.
What keeps coming to mind is what does this mean? What does this look like? How does this feel? How do I build this? “This” being my life! I’m excited, though also a bit anxious with the where, and the how, and the what to begin creating for this life of mine! I’m going with the flow, with what feels right, and with what life may bring, choosing that which adds substance and depth, pleasure and joy … Life knows best; my heart is as open as the sky!
So, I began by establishing a domain, and a blog, and a new e-mail! Awe, so beginning this new life obviously entails the inner webs and the electronic medium! Yep, I realize the action of keeping a history of life, a diary, documenting details while on this journey of living, is valuable and fun.
Hmmmm, and I’m full of thoughts and ideas about the ‘what’ I’d like in my life. Writing, to start with; I will write and earn a living at writing! Documenting, here on LilyVee, the details of my life and my world. This will include heartfelt internal dialogues as I map and engage with living this journey of my life.
And art, is definitely a detail in my life! I will write more poetry and lyrics and share them here! I will write, period, full stop! I will paint more with water colour and play with acrylic and oil and mixed media, too! I will document this life of mine with photographs of people and places and experiences!
Oh and relationships, will most decidedly be integral detail in my life! Inviting in and extending myself into engaging with my world and the people in it. Invaluable for me and my heart, my being. This will be most fun, meeting new friends, being of service to others, relating more to my physical world and getting out in it with my camera!
Certain, too, that there is more to come, more to colour my life and pull me in interesting and stimulating directions. There is sure to be more, lots more to discover about me and about living, while creating this life of mine!
And so, here I am, finding myself at this point in time creating my life: beginning!